His arm reached around me and pulled me close, as if He was trying to pull all my frazzled parts together and center me in my grief. My heart was aching as I felt his lips press behind my ear. Tears made their way down my cheeks. The first waves of grief rolled over me. […]
As the World Shakes in Fear, Can I Still Hope?
It hurts, watching the world splintering in fear. It hurts so much, and I grieve over so much pain. I get online and it’s the first thing I see in the morning, more fear: Another shooting. I’m not shocked, I’m horrified and grieved but not shocked. I hate that I’m not shocked. And I feel the […]
When Life Invades
I haven’t really written much this year, I kept meaning to, but life just kept happening! Right at the end of January my Grandmother had a massive heart attack. She survived, initially. But the next week was a draining marathon of the hospital, and arranging for hospice. We brought her home, and she passed not more […]
A Patch of Green Grass
The evening was cool, and refreshing after a week of one-hundred degree weather. Summer, in full swing in drought ridden California, can be described in one word: Oven. Over the months my eyes have seen more brown, dead, grass than I’ve ever seen before, a testament that the people here are increasingly concerned with the evidence of dryness around […]
Available For God’s Use
What does it take to be someone God can use for His glory? I think often we disqualify ourselves from really being a “witness” for God because we simply don’t know what to say. But what does it really take to be a person that God can use? Years and years of “Christian” experience? Some […]
Beauty For Ashes
As life defining moments go, it was one of those big ones. I was fifteen. I was sitting up on the roof of our house. I’d been told earlier that I was sick, some type of hepatitis. My world had shattered, even then I didn’t know how much. All I knew at that point was that […]
Easter Unprepared
It’s happened again! Easter week is here, and I’m caught pretty much unprepared! Every year I tell myself I’m not going to do this, not going to just leave Easter for the last minute. Every year it seems to sneak up on me before I know it! All of a sudden I’m seeing blog posts […]
Raising a Gift
My daughters birthday was last week. My beautiful, sweet, kind little girl. She is now three and I’m already surprised by how fast and at the same time how slow time goes by. I wish I could grasp at time, and still it, and keep her longer. But I have no control of time, and […]
When the Battle Rages
I don’t understand me sometimes. I’ll be doing so well, and then, crash! Something in me falls down into a pit, and as much as I try, I just can’t seem to pull myself up out of it. Is this depression? I don’t think I feel depressed. Just… some kind of loss of self. Ever […]
Mission of Life and Death
Here I am, again, in a lab waiting room, again, having just come from radiology, again, checking my liver, again. You never get used to chronic illness. But then you do. But then you see a friend in the waiting room at radiology, she found a lump, they are sure it’s nothing. You wonder, am […]
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